alright, so i finally planned my educational journey. i figured it out today. i mean yeah, i always known what i wanted to do for my future, but honestly it was just the matter on what route to take. deciding on this however, it means i have to work my ass off and to put in extra effort in all my assignments and studying now days. it's crazy, but determined on what i want do for this future of mine, i'm definetly going to aspire myself to do it.

go zong, go!

i'm glad that i finally determined on how am i going to complete my first main big goal, so now i actually have an incentive to work for it. decisions are made by my own, so i'll definetly will not regret it. sure there are doubts here and there, but honestly we'll just live on.

and yes, i do have a back-up plan. but it's the stupidiest back-up plan but i think my mum wishes me for the best.

i've decided i'm going to jc even after all the planning in going everywhere else, but in the end i would go abroad and do my degree, and although my mum says that she'll think about it, i'm about 99% sure that she'll allow me to. (according to the way everytime i asked her what if i failed my exams)

but thinking about the replies, i'm amused at the amount of faith she has on me. which reversing the psychology, shows that she trusts me to a certain extent, (except the stupid things which she can't do as well) which brings me back to the point before.

i told my friends yesturday that i think i'm the only weird one in initiating talks with my mum. but after this, i'm glad i always did.

problem is, my dad. i'm almost 100% sure that he has no idea at all on what i'm planning to do. lack communication between me and him, but i definetly know that he hasn't a slightest idea that i actually have a plan for my future or my ambitions.

good thing about my parents, they don't plan for thier children future, but expect us to plan for our own. geratest gift i receieve in life. don't get me wrong, i really appreciate it.

to my self-esteem: keep in line with others and yourself.

don't rush into things, take it one step at a time, only then will it be acomplished.

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